炖豆角的时候放了所有自己觉得该放的东西,可最后尝的时候一点味道也没有,想来想去不知道自己少放了什么,最后放了些蒜在里边,味道忽然丰富了起来,土豆也流出了黏黏的口水,超级佩服自己的精湛厨艺.

 

     前天做三文鱼的时候妈的被三文鱼咬了一口,到底是我吃你还是你吃我?后来把它做熟了之后猛吃它来报仇.

    

     不知不觉,原来自己可以做很多好吃的东西了:糖醋排骨,红烧肉,清蒸鱼,东北炖豆角,家常烧豆......谁嫁给我真是他的福气啊!嘿嘿嘿窃喜.

 

      今天房东大爷虽然占用了我一天的时间,早上陪他聊天,下午陪他去他哥哥家修门修热水器,晚上快到十二点了还要陪他去他的工作室看他的设计,不过想想还不赖,混到了半盒香烟不给大爷了,知足点嘛,至少在大爷的哥哥家也还混了碗饺子吃.知足常乐,要不也是不知道怎么过周末.反正也学到了些东西在大爷身上,比如说做人不要太认真,嘻嘻哈哈的大家都喜爱,多拍点马屁又怎样,甜死人又不用偿命.做人要本分.啊!学的东西好多,不知道自己能不能吃透.

 

     困了,睡觉去啦!

Confused,I always confused,and maybe this just a element exist in my body,and grow with me in my life.

Lonely,I still feel so lonely,and maybe this just a element esist in my body as well,and grow with me in my life and wanna take up in my life.

Nervous,afraid one day,I will lost control and lost everything I have even I dont own too much things.

What I am worring about?Something uncertain.future?what`s a kind of future I have?Love?seems far away from me and not my business......

...

Sometimes I jumped so fast from this mood to another mood which is totally opposite from before what I am in

 

Yeah,as u think,I am in bad mood again this time,and I wanna go home,back to CHINA,wanna get together with my grandma and grandpa,eatting dumplings with them.Spain maybe not good for me living,and people not as hot as what I thought before.little bit block,and I back off again and again.

 

I hate myself,If I am not always hide somewhere or alway back up when I meet any difficult,maybe I wont hate myself a lot.Can I love myself a little bit?I dont know.Yeah,I always dont know.

 

Gin told me I shouldn`t back to Shanghai so early,she told me wait and see,cause I came here not too long,should see things clear here and then decide,Yu she told me treat thing seriously,cause if I really back to Shanghai and find a job living there,should then there is not any difficulities any more?And if there still have any difficult,where u go again?So appreciate you 2.big hug to u

 

Recently I always study in a playground of gym,and there is a bird I guess he must so horny,yelling yelling all the time,and made me couldnt study,and then I watch him,he had tired thousand times of chasing the other birds,and nobody take it but fly away.but he didnt stop trying,even me feel it worthless and maybe he had tried all of the birds in the ground,I gave up,but this bird didnt stop,I guess after I left,he maybe still trying.

 

Yeah,maybe I should wait and see whats going on for a moment.

 

let me introduce this damn silly annoying bird to everybody now

 

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    After class,I took camera and went to that square to take some pictures of that famous"Music Spring",people told me that spring is the second biggest one in world,well for me it just so so,even my small home town has that kind of size of Music spring as well,so,I guess people just like boasting.And dont always trust what people said.The spring started from 8:30,at first I felt just so so,but after climbed to the top,I can see the whole of barcelona,what was wonderful!the light,the music and the spring made the whole city vivid and beautiful,I really felt good.

 

    After that one, I went to a bar not far from there,took one cappcino and one gin tonic,chatted with Bin and enjoyed the coversation.11o`clock,we said byebye to each other and then left.just this moment,I recived one message from Gabriel,and he asked me if I am interested in going out tonight,there would be lots of other people joined us as well.I replyed him sure and then started the first time of going out at the weekend in BCN.

 

    I backed home first then and changed my cloth,shoes and used D&G perfume went out.So exicted,and the first time met Gabriel and his friends,2 spanish guys,2 frenches,and 1 german girl,what`s the others?enn...I forgot.anyway,we had fun,just the music a little suck,cause DJ really suck at making the whole atomsphere cheer up,same type even same speed of music through all the time,DJ like a deadfish standed there and without any emotions on his face.I hate him,but anyway I had fun,I drunk Jack coke,barcadi coke and heniken,flurting with a hot itlian guy(just a little bit old for me :P),dancing with those new friends.It is a wonderful night anyway.

 

    I found I fed up very quickly,around 4o`clock,I felt tired and sat on a small stage,and then I looked at everyone who I can saw,camp boys,old guys,freaks,and couldn`t less hot and cute and beautiful and handsome guys,and I got one idea,every country same case,no matter the club luxury or simple,dirty or clean,more or less people,always got the same bundle of stuff there:people shake their ass and try their best to make them feel they are the queen of the dance floor,try to make themselves noticed,they can be funny,they can be cool,they can be whatever they like,when the light goes down,when the music goes high,they will never stop shaking ass and hunting man.

 

     Once a month is enough for me,I am really fed up,maybe I am old now,who knows,I just need a good man to share life with me.that`s all,so where r u my good man?Hihi.

闲了两天在家,结果越呆心越乱.

长大了真的是不好玩,什么都要想,什么都要操心.原来理想与现实之间的差距真的很大.

在生活中,工作不顺心,找对象又找不到称心的,想找个说说话的人都没有,心里的滋味真的很不好.

总是在不顺心的时候就想回国,可要是回国了之后就又要重新开始,我真的不知道要从哪里开始的好,迷茫,真的很讨厌自己,犹犹豫豫的,拿不起放不下.

我那个山水田园的梦看来真的是实现不了了.

乱,心里真的太乱,

烦,心里真的很烦.

This evening,on the bus there was a damn hot spanish guy who sat face to me,and he didn`t stop staring at me since like he never saw any chinese guy before,he is damn hot guy:I like his hair style,like aferican people`s hair style,he wears typical spanish cloth and even his bag is typical spanish home made as well,I guess he should from a small village of spain,bt his nature character impressed me a lot,and his smile without any disguse and so pure,like a big child!!!I love the way he look at me,curious and with quite a lot of interested,I love when he singing and clupped his hand no matter other passangers staring at him with bad attitude,he seems didn`t care about that,he enjoyed and gave me lots of joy too,he is such a guy who knows enjoy life,and when he asked me like spain or not,damn!if everyone all looks as hot as him,i will live there forever!!!

 

anyway,anyhow,we r just passagers in a bus,and never see each other again probrally,bt this 30mins bus give me quite a lot of good joy,I am so enjoy it in this raining day.cheers!love spanish!

 

my friends dont say that I am horny ok?Hihi,I just want to keep this good momery of coversation with this hot spanish guy.

    I have an asshole boss,he always pay me less than what he should pay me,his name is Patrick.

 

    Last time,he paid me less 2 and half hours,cause I am so busy,and I dont like to talk about this with him,but this time,he made even worse than the last time,and he paid me less 16 euros,he is such an asshole,I work for him day and night,and sometimes even can`t get enough hours for sleep,but he paid me not as much as he should paid me,anyway,I will not compromise this things,and I will ask my wage back for sure!

    Recently should work too much everyday,cause today since I got up from bed,I have been feeling tired all the tired,but it is ok,I am young,Just treat it as a spirt and body`s training,and i am sure that I will have a good future for sure!

   

    For love,for children,for future,for dreams,I need work hard,and when i think of this this,I feel much more happy than tired.

 

    There`s something recently I have to learn and use it,It`s very important if people live in this society nowadays,I hope that something my friends can learn as well from here and maybe it is useful to u too.

 

     1."learn to refuse"

 

     It`s so important to know how to refuse people,sometimes they ask lots of requests or helps from u,bt you r not superman right?dont be shy when u can`t not do it or out of ur ability,start to say"No!"to them,otherwise u can only be tired of urself and dont expect other people understand u and appreciate u.just help people properly is enough.

 

    2."Don`t always be honest"

 

    It`s a great and precious character in this world to be honest,but look at this world now,how many people be honest to u then?I got many times of  betreat or hurt just because I am too honest to people.You will never have idea of how many people hide their knives behind themselves and waitting u open ur heart to them and then they will cut it off.

    To strangers,"Hell NO"!dont always trust them so easily,be calm to them first always safe to urself.

    To nodding head people,"No".u will not sure if they r just using u or not,dont treat this kind of relationship seriously.

    To some of ur friends and even some of ur family members,u can`t trust them either sometimes,but to ur truely friends and the family member who really love u,it is always nice when u be honest to them.cause they can really think of u,and help u without any considering,and they won`t have any purpose on u,be honest with them,u will get the same honest from them as well.

 

   3."Be happy"

 

    Be happy,try to live happily every day,dont make ur own difficult urself.

 

    This morning,I bought a pasta in one of the small restaurant in Msida,it totally aweful,I can`t ate it totally.taste like not cooked.ya...k

 

     My jerry beans,I miss u,no time to buy u in the supermarket,next time I will buy 10 packets from there.yummy!

    

   

jerry beans so yummy!can`t help eatting them every day!!!

 

recently I worked a lot,money money money,all I want is u now,cause only only money won`t betreat me,money is my best friend,hihi~(By the way,some of ur guys dont think that I am not treat u like my best friends,of course I won`t!)When I save enough,I leave here,and move to another place.

 

I want buy a PSP,and a NDS as well,but the thing is I wont have time playing that.hesitating~~~

 

S went to roma now,and hope he will study well there.

 

Goona relax now,finally get one day off,happy!and gonna to enjoy it now.

This weekend too tired for me,more than 10 hours a day working,bt I enjoy it,seems my life started busy again now.

 

It is nice when life start back to normal again.yesterday I found a nice bargin book shop,and there get lots of nice books there,I think maybe after finish reading that fiction and the magzine I will go there buy some nice books reading.

 

Maybe this year later I will find one week free and go to Itlay for a vacation.I need a holiday for myself to release my mood.

 

Busy busy,going to cook something,today`s diary is over,take a bow.

     妈的,最近似乎就一直没消停过,最近刚注销一张银行卡,在等HSBC邮新卡的过程中我就把2000欧元全都放在自己屋子里的一个包包里放着了,今天银行把卡邮了过来,早上还打算去存钱呢,翻翻包看,钱没了,我草他妈的,这个运气!

     想想就是自己太爱相信人了,这个世界哪里有那么多的干净事?自己妈都不应该相信!死娘们肯定拿我钱去赌场花天酒地去了!给我姥爷打电话告状我姥爷说了句:"我管不着!"

想想都是自己折腾的:

     和老板说去爱尔兰,老子不干了觉得很牛B...

     在爱尔兰刚呆上两周就又回来,为了爱情,觉得很浪漫... 

     妈的,结果爱情没了...事业也没了...钱还被偷了...

     我草的!

     谁他妈的找我写个剧本,拍出来肯定能获奥斯卡奖,真他妈的戏剧化!

     我真不想活的这么Drama,累不累啊!

     我也不小了,人家都成家立业了,可我...

     唉,我操的,我就这个命了.刚想重新来过重新来过的,老是这么三番五次的给我个打击让我尝尝.

     拉到吧,今后做个坏人活得能更轻松些.上英国当AV男优算了,妈的,赚钱还爽到了.

     哪边是我的路啊?前后的瞅瞅看,不知道往哪里笨了,迷茫了,乱了.

listening to the old song,remembering senior middle school,that time I was wondering the same story like the Y comic books.several years later,I find out that the real world is not the same like what we think so simply,there have lairs,freaks,bad personalities people...

 

in fact,people always dont keep their promises.

 

in fact,people difficult to keep their promises.

 

in fact,people difficult to live a wonderful life.

 

I lost myself now,I dont know where should I begin,where should I go,what should I do next step.

 

I feel like I am like a balloon,floating in the sky,go with the wind,dont know where is my destination,until blow up.

 

what`s wrong with being simple?why this world have to be complicted?why people have to do harm to me?

 

you feel like fed up then you fed up,but where is your promise to me?

 

我要我们在一起,bull shit.

你要像我爱你一样爱我好吗?bull shit.

 

I will be fine,I will be fine and much more better and better.

I will be strong.

 

you will regret what u did.

真做了把傻X.

把我做的傻事说出去了就更是个傻X

再不要做傻X

 

不要再轻易相信别人的鬼话

事业第一

定个目标

拼了

 

什么?

还想谈感情?

去你妈的吧!

我他妈的再不做傻X了!

Today I look like a shit,a shit man.I wondering today sometimes if I really touched any shits today when I walked.cause I really got a hell day.

 

It is a hell day for me,My mobile did`nt alarm in the morning,and I got up late because of that,even I got there before the department of the airplane,the plane flied erlier.Ryanair`S service quite nice,they didn`t even inform me that the plane took off earlier this morning,and after I asked them to change another flight for me,they treat me like a idiot,and told me go to airmalta change.that`s not my falut,I insisted they give me a way back to malta today,and I have to back to malta today,cause my visa for stay in ireland only 14 days(the shit man in the airport cut my 3 month holiday into 14 days.without any reason when i first arrived in dublin),and this is the last day I can allowed to stay in here.then the stupid stuff of the ryanair said they can`t help me,as a matter of fact,they don`t give you a shit,cause they think I am just a foolish chinese guy,even I told them my visa is up to te date,they did nothing but laughing.

 

I tried lots of ways,lots of flight angencies,they all dont have flight to malta today,quite a day,so the best way is go to london first,and then transfer to malta.and then I backed to ryanair again,and asked them give me the tickets from dublin to london,and another tickents from london to malta.They asked me another 350euros for the new tickets,quite a service.whatever,I can back to malta today,I dont want to have any issue with those shit stuff anymore,they just want shit money.

 

one hour later,I arrived to london,my cellphone out of power,damn cellphone again,that means I can`t contract with my love,and can`t tell him when I arrived in malta either.we totally lost in touch.shit,shit,shit!I was totally fucked up by that damn cellphone!I swear that I will change it for sure soon!So I searched everywhere of the airport for the place of charging cellphone,nowhere at last,so I tried to borrow other people`s cellphone,it turned out to no one,yes,no one would like to borrow thems cellphone to me,cause they suspect,or worried what I want borrow those poeole`s cellphone for,so none of them would like to borrow cellphone to me,but at last I found a girl from Thailand,she was so kindly to borrow her cellphone to me,and I finally found my love`s number and sent him message my flight number and the time.from this I can see what`s the different between asain and european people.one is with kindly heart another one always with shit brain with shit mind.I don`t even want to mention the service of the london airport`s service.

 

the london airport service seems more sucks than dublin airport,they charged me another 16 pounds for my handbag,which in dublin airport I didn`t get any charged.and the airport security stuff asked me took off my cloth twice in the airport,I felt I got insult from them.Anyway,it is quite a difficult day today,everything all resisited me,everything.

 

Anyway,I dont think I will go to dublin even london anymore,they are all shit place for shit people living.I dont think normal regular people suit there.

 

I hope everything goes fine after that,shit,dont want live like this anymore.

 

what`s the fuck happened today?

 

sometimes I have to believe in luck.does anybody take my luck from me?I hope my luck back soon.

 

but anyway,i finally back to my love and get together with him,love him!

Exams finally over!

Me and my friend had fun last weekend,it can say that last 2 weeks are the most wonderful weekend in the whole year in Malta.The boss of the Vunus supplied us the most delicious mediterranean seafood plater to us,even it costed a lot,but it worth,seafood with chine blanc always perfect.and we also had dessert after diner,typical mediterranean dessert with honey dip and vanilla icecream,people told me this kind of dessert has past several gerenations here.it can be proved this kind of dessert is really popular here for ages.

I finally have my own time without worrying about any shit exams anymore.tonight I will cook "cola chicken wings","pasta with marshrooms and cream sauce",some"baked potatos"as well I think.of course spend the diner with my sweety.Where is my collection of chinese rice wine?hope it not out of date.

malta recently smoke hot!swimming everyday become a habit of mine.

Thursday I will be in Dublin,cheers!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Rings

 

Reproduce in print

 

Kongfu show

 

Dancers in the light

Cheering

 

So beautiful

 

Dancing in the sky

 

Musician performing

 

Dancer

 

It is so pity of those kind of people.

 

I really sympathize those people who live in the BBC or CNN media all thems life,how wonderful and splendid the 2008 olympic games opening ceremony it is,but none of those media has live broadcast it,and I feel pity for those people who grown up in those kind of meida,I think thats what they think the way of"information opening to everybody".

 

They must be afraid of CHINA,cause CHINA this moment is really stronger enough,and those white people just afraid of people getter stronger than them,even a little bit,they won`t stand it,so,they just using those media talking shit about CHINA,and making lots of unreal things out of those media,today I was waitting in front of tv for very long time,and still BBC and CNN talking shit,seemed they didn`t want to broadcast it at all,and I got nervous of can not watch this year olympic games opening ceremony,so I tried many ways to watch that.and finally find it on the half way from a german channel.

 

At last,I got a idea,I will neaver give a shit to those whites BBC or CNN at all after,cause they r really shit enough to let me leave away from them.suck!they suck!really suck!

 

One thing I am sure is they wont stop us keep moving on,our country will be the most stronest country in this world sooner or later,and we r already the best now.one day,chinese people will rule this world!for sure!

  Last week drived me crazy,I nearly wasted everyday on some useless things,and I always wondered that why I had to let those bored things took up my life?it likes a wonderful funny films:recently I most wasted my most of the time around embasscy,bank and some of the useless goverment office of malta,and everyday all with no result or should say no work to ended up the day.after finally finished deal with the useless goverment office stuff,I went to the embasscy with all the possibly documents they could asked for from me,but it seems still not enough for those peoples desire,they asked my bank statement as well,so I went to the bank the next day morning,the bank said I had to wait 6 working days for my bank statement,and they charged me 2 euros each paper of the statement,then,the same day afternoon,I backed to embasscy again,and told them that they had to wait 6 working days of the bank and then could get my bank statement,the the embasscy said it was okey for them now,cause they already posted all my information to their country,well,so seems that bank statement was not so important for them?and I had to call the BOV bank again to tell them cancel my bank statement cause the embassy didn`t need it anymore.and after they asked handereds of questions through the phone and there was still no answer of my question:"can u just stopped questioning me and just cancel my bankstatement?"do...do...do...the phone hung up!!!and I phoned them again,my phone out of credit,holy shit,I just recharged it 1 day ago!!!it was totally insane!so I have to backed to the bank myself again,and asked them to cancel,but they answered:"sorry,we can`t",and they took the money from my cashlink card without my permition!!!it was totally like the thief stolen money from people!It quite maltese!people said that maltese r all bastard,it seems ture.anyway,at least I had date with my friends already went to PV friday night,so I decided to go to pretty bay swimming for relax,cause I was totally fucked up by the maltese nuts,but nowadays the pretty bay was not pretty anymore,too much tourists polluted the water,there were quite a lot plastic bottles and bags floatting on the water,I totally counld not swimming there,and they would not give me a chance for relaxing on the beach at least either:that day happened to some fest there,and workers used fireworks took up all the beach place.quite a day,so at last:I missed the dinner with my friends,missed the cocktails in the cocktail bar,and missed dancing with my friends in the club as well,they text me but I couldn`t reply,remember that damn bank wasted all my fees of the cellphone.so at last I could only stayed at home end up the friday night.

  Thanks god,P dated me out on the saturday,and we spent the whole weekend together at last,it was so wonderfu,and I think it can even the bad week days.we first took some beers in Kalkara supernova bar,and had a good coversation as well.and then we moved to amazunia dancing,cigarettes,heiniken,JB with lemonate,and the good music cheered me up a lot.it was a wonderful saturday night.On sunday,we cooked a nice breakfast and teas in the morning,and then we watched a nice movie together,he shower me his photographers as well,everybody knows that I love photography,and we talked a lot of how to made a good picture.evening,we went to melliha,we ate dinner in a hotel restaurant,the place was nice to see the whole view of the melliha bay,it was beautiful.and we ordered a bottle of sauvignon blanc of chile,I forgot the name of that,should be called satiago or what ever,it tasted good:fresh,crispy but elegant!we talked a lot about the wines,he is the man who loves wine very much as well.we all thought that we were so starved but in fact after the starter,we couldn`t eat the veals,it was delicious,but just too much,who knew that they supplied 2 piece  of veal of each of us!!!after we saw the food,we laughted and took a short break after every mouth of meat,seems like a long time dinner,hihi,but we still had appetite for the dessert(in fact we liked to ordered cocktails after maincourse,but we all forgot whats the name of rum with mints and lime stuff___mojto I know,but that time we all couldn`t remember the name of that,so wired),so we decide to ordered ice cream and tiramisu.there was a black girl working there,she is pretty,she liked singing a lot when she was working,and we talked to her:"you like singing a lot,can you just sing a song for us,cause u see,there is no music,we feel bored,so can u just please sing a song for us?"and she was shy when we asked her to sing a song,she used all kinds of excuses to refused us,and even other customers all asked her singing,even the other waitress!!!one of the waitress counldn`t bear the shyness of that girl and said:"come on!we all know that u sing a lot in the jungle!"??????jungle?????lol,it made me a big laught,cause considering her color of skin I thought it was a joke of that girl,but in fact there is a jungle club downstairs.lol.it was a good joke,wasn`t it?

  I teached him some japanese,he teached me some french,that was quite a nice night.after dinner,we went to the melliha bay,the beach was so soft and cool,felt comfortable when walked on that.we watched the sea,and lay down on the beach,no matter there was no towel,just lay down there as we liked,and that day the sky was awesome!lots of stars came out,twinkled twinkled.it absolutely beautiful!no people intruptted us,the only sound was from the sea.quiet,but beautiful!and that night,I was so lucky that I saw one meteor falling from the sky,shining,less than one second and then disappeared in the sky,we saw that at the same time,I couldn`t trust my eyes,cause I only saw twice in my 23 years.he said make a wish,but there was not enough time for making a wish,but that was still can satisfy me,it was beautiful.

  Today,he sent me message:thank you for the wonderful weekend,I think thats should what I say to him,I got a wonderful weekend with you as well,thank you,P  

I am going crazy!I totally cant stop worrying before I go to Ilreland,I have spent my whole afternoon been searching the school in D,but none of them suit me,what should I do?the fees charge too much or the couses which i dont like to learn,what should I do then?

 

why I waste my good weekend day at home searching useless rubbish information from internet?I think i am really crazy now.

 

Ah!god save me!

 

I know it is bad that I can`t stop eatting junk food when I feel bad,but it really helps.

 

I am sick this moment,I got sour throat,got cold,feel bad...Ah,GOD,save me!

 

Bianco`s luken is totally a asshole,never see such a bad asshole like him before,he really pisses me off,I wanna kick his ass to the sea,or should i slash out his cloth and throw him to the street nakedly,and sell him to the old men and women cheaply?yesterday he asked me to work there and then I spent one hour on road and then only let me workd there 2 hours,fuck off!anyway,we got quite a lot unpleasure things together,that asshole wont live anylonger for sure!(find my self such a bitch when I swear someone I dont like)

 

it is so hot,I cant concentrate on anything this moment!GOD,save me!

 

I think I am not in myself this moment,cause I dont know what I am doing now,and what I want to express this moment!

 

Why I always worry about everything?It is still not coming yet,I should still enjoy the good time this moment,back to normal life then,I am so stupid,I should fuck myself,cause I find myself always say some stupid words recently,God,save me please!let me get out of this confusion please!

     party party,since i moved to sliema,it seems that i jioned more and more parities everyweek.

    

     sometimes really exciteing and happy,sometimes really borning.

   

     every clubs here play the same music everyday,say the same words everyday,nothing fresh,sometimes u can meet same people in the same club as well.

 

     old ugly aweful people always keep theirs eyes on u,and stalk u all the time,it is borthing,annoying.sometimes crazy u crazy and want kick thems asses and pull those ugly head throw them out of the club door.

 

    thats malta,people sucks,without friends company with me,every party as suck as maltese people.seems have less than a month here in malta,nothing worth me mising here.how many parties left i can go?