Rings

 

Reproduce in print

 

Kongfu show

 

Dancers in the light

Cheering

 

So beautiful

 

Dancing in the sky

 

Musician performing

 

Dancer

 

It is so pity of those kind of people.

 

I really sympathize those people who live in the BBC or CNN media all thems life,how wonderful and splendid the 2008 olympic games opening ceremony it is,but none of those media has live broadcast it,and I feel pity for those people who grown up in those kind of meida,I think thats what they think the way of"information opening to everybody".

 

They must be afraid of CHINA,cause CHINA this moment is really stronger enough,and those white people just afraid of people getter stronger than them,even a little bit,they won`t stand it,so,they just using those media talking shit about CHINA,and making lots of unreal things out of those media,today I was waitting in front of tv for very long time,and still BBC and CNN talking shit,seemed they didn`t want to broadcast it at all,and I got nervous of can not watch this year olympic games opening ceremony,so I tried many ways to watch that.and finally find it on the half way from a german channel.

 

At last,I got a idea,I will neaver give a shit to those whites BBC or CNN at all after,cause they r really shit enough to let me leave away from them.suck!they suck!really suck!

 

One thing I am sure is they wont stop us keep moving on,our country will be the most stronest country in this world sooner or later,and we r already the best now.one day,chinese people will rule this world!for sure!

  Last week drived me crazy,I nearly wasted everyday on some useless things,and I always wondered that why I had to let those bored things took up my life?it likes a wonderful funny films:recently I most wasted my most of the time around embasscy,bank and some of the useless goverment office of malta,and everyday all with no result or should say no work to ended up the day.after finally finished deal with the useless goverment office stuff,I went to the embasscy with all the possibly documents they could asked for from me,but it seems still not enough for those peoples desire,they asked my bank statement as well,so I went to the bank the next day morning,the bank said I had to wait 6 working days for my bank statement,and they charged me 2 euros each paper of the statement,then,the same day afternoon,I backed to embasscy again,and told them that they had to wait 6 working days of the bank and then could get my bank statement,the the embasscy said it was okey for them now,cause they already posted all my information to their country,well,so seems that bank statement was not so important for them?and I had to call the BOV bank again to tell them cancel my bank statement cause the embassy didn`t need it anymore.and after they asked handereds of questions through the phone and there was still no answer of my question:"can u just stopped questioning me and just cancel my bankstatement?"do...do...do...the phone hung up!!!and I phoned them again,my phone out of credit,holy shit,I just recharged it 1 day ago!!!it was totally insane!so I have to backed to the bank myself again,and asked them to cancel,but they answered:"sorry,we can`t",and they took the money from my cashlink card without my permition!!!it was totally like the thief stolen money from people!It quite maltese!people said that maltese r all bastard,it seems ture.anyway,at least I had date with my friends already went to PV friday night,so I decided to go to pretty bay swimming for relax,cause I was totally fucked up by the maltese nuts,but nowadays the pretty bay was not pretty anymore,too much tourists polluted the water,there were quite a lot plastic bottles and bags floatting on the water,I totally counld not swimming there,and they would not give me a chance for relaxing on the beach at least either:that day happened to some fest there,and workers used fireworks took up all the beach place.quite a day,so at last:I missed the dinner with my friends,missed the cocktails in the cocktail bar,and missed dancing with my friends in the club as well,they text me but I couldn`t reply,remember that damn bank wasted all my fees of the cellphone.so at last I could only stayed at home end up the friday night.

  Thanks god,P dated me out on the saturday,and we spent the whole weekend together at last,it was so wonderfu,and I think it can even the bad week days.we first took some beers in Kalkara supernova bar,and had a good coversation as well.and then we moved to amazunia dancing,cigarettes,heiniken,JB with lemonate,and the good music cheered me up a lot.it was a wonderful saturday night.On sunday,we cooked a nice breakfast and teas in the morning,and then we watched a nice movie together,he shower me his photographers as well,everybody knows that I love photography,and we talked a lot of how to made a good picture.evening,we went to melliha,we ate dinner in a hotel restaurant,the place was nice to see the whole view of the melliha bay,it was beautiful.and we ordered a bottle of sauvignon blanc of chile,I forgot the name of that,should be called satiago or what ever,it tasted good:fresh,crispy but elegant!we talked a lot about the wines,he is the man who loves wine very much as well.we all thought that we were so starved but in fact after the starter,we couldn`t eat the veals,it was delicious,but just too much,who knew that they supplied 2 piece  of veal of each of us!!!after we saw the food,we laughted and took a short break after every mouth of meat,seems like a long time dinner,hihi,but we still had appetite for the dessert(in fact we liked to ordered cocktails after maincourse,but we all forgot whats the name of rum with mints and lime stuff___mojto I know,but that time we all couldn`t remember the name of that,so wired),so we decide to ordered ice cream and tiramisu.there was a black girl working there,she is pretty,she liked singing a lot when she was working,and we talked to her:"you like singing a lot,can you just sing a song for us,cause u see,there is no music,we feel bored,so can u just please sing a song for us?"and she was shy when we asked her to sing a song,she used all kinds of excuses to refused us,and even other customers all asked her singing,even the other waitress!!!one of the waitress counldn`t bear the shyness of that girl and said:"come on!we all know that u sing a lot in the jungle!"??????jungle?????lol,it made me a big laught,cause considering her color of skin I thought it was a joke of that girl,but in fact there is a jungle club downstairs.lol.it was a good joke,wasn`t it?

  I teached him some japanese,he teached me some french,that was quite a nice night.after dinner,we went to the melliha bay,the beach was so soft and cool,felt comfortable when walked on that.we watched the sea,and lay down on the beach,no matter there was no towel,just lay down there as we liked,and that day the sky was awesome!lots of stars came out,twinkled twinkled.it absolutely beautiful!no people intruptted us,the only sound was from the sea.quiet,but beautiful!and that night,I was so lucky that I saw one meteor falling from the sky,shining,less than one second and then disappeared in the sky,we saw that at the same time,I couldn`t trust my eyes,cause I only saw twice in my 23 years.he said make a wish,but there was not enough time for making a wish,but that was still can satisfy me,it was beautiful.

  Today,he sent me message:thank you for the wonderful weekend,I think thats should what I say to him,I got a wonderful weekend with you as well,thank you,P  

I am going crazy!I totally cant stop worrying before I go to Ilreland,I have spent my whole afternoon been searching the school in D,but none of them suit me,what should I do?the fees charge too much or the couses which i dont like to learn,what should I do then?

 

why I waste my good weekend day at home searching useless rubbish information from internet?I think i am really crazy now.

 

Ah!god save me!

 

I know it is bad that I can`t stop eatting junk food when I feel bad,but it really helps.

 

I am sick this moment,I got sour throat,got cold,feel bad...Ah,GOD,save me!

 

Bianco`s luken is totally a asshole,never see such a bad asshole like him before,he really pisses me off,I wanna kick his ass to the sea,or should i slash out his cloth and throw him to the street nakedly,and sell him to the old men and women cheaply?yesterday he asked me to work there and then I spent one hour on road and then only let me workd there 2 hours,fuck off!anyway,we got quite a lot unpleasure things together,that asshole wont live anylonger for sure!(find my self such a bitch when I swear someone I dont like)

 

it is so hot,I cant concentrate on anything this moment!GOD,save me!

 

I think I am not in myself this moment,cause I dont know what I am doing now,and what I want to express this moment!

 

Why I always worry about everything?It is still not coming yet,I should still enjoy the good time this moment,back to normal life then,I am so stupid,I should fuck myself,cause I find myself always say some stupid words recently,God,save me please!let me get out of this confusion please!

     party party,since i moved to sliema,it seems that i jioned more and more parities everyweek.

    

     sometimes really exciteing and happy,sometimes really borning.

   

     every clubs here play the same music everyday,say the same words everyday,nothing fresh,sometimes u can meet same people in the same club as well.

 

     old ugly aweful people always keep theirs eyes on u,and stalk u all the time,it is borthing,annoying.sometimes crazy u crazy and want kick thems asses and pull those ugly head throw them out of the club door.

 

    thats malta,people sucks,without friends company with me,every party as suck as maltese people.seems have less than a month here in malta,nothing worth me mising here.how many parties left i can go?

    move to Sliema for 3 or 4 weeks,M backed to German 2 weeks ago,seems like he left yesterday,we have a good time in PV the day befroe he left,miss him,and still remember when he got drunk he nude swimming in the beach of PV,lol.

    B seems lost in touch with me for a long time,and even E

    S still in depressive?dont know,and dont wanna know,when he thinks that he is wrong i will consider to talk with him again.

    C exams finished,i can meet him then!happy!

    July i will left here as well for sure

    moving moving

    what is my next station? 

Feel not like talking with people,everyone,I stopping talking with anyone.

I am tried,but how can I find a way to relax?

Am I doing something wrong?

Suddenly I feel lonely and sad.

"Lonely people always feel ashamed",I finally realize this means.

Could everything make even worse on me?let me suffer it until perfect,and let me know that:anyone and anything else can mess me and my life.

Give up something and keep moving on.  

I do not want look back after this time,so give me some courage,and let me do it.ok?

    just heard one of my chinese friend said that yesterday my mun told her that she paid my 4 years universtiy fees when i was in china,how shameless she is,she is a lier and she is such a asshole!how shameless she can say something like that?

    hope she didn`t tell that one who i recently crash on,but i guess she already did.

    anyway,after 22 years i finally know what kind of mum i got.i will never admit that she is my mum,cause she never act like a mum.nobody will believe it,how a mum can kick her son out after stloen her son 4500euros.

    OMG,just can`t believe it,but i have to get used to it.anyway,new job,new place for living,hope my life wont suck anymore.

    Recently I just cant sleep so early,cause addictive to one chinese online game,normally I get sleep in the morning 3 or 4 clock,sometimes at 6 or 7 in the morning.so I normally get up at 12 or 1 or 2 in the afternoon.

 

    Today,something not quite pleasure happened,some stupid works was building house around my house from 6 this morning till afternoon,and u can hear those unpleasure hammer noise all the time.they totally disrupt my sleep,and I got pissed,"whats the hell u guys doing here?it is weekend,u know?I am sleeping!"I opened the window and shouted to them.

 

    And they seems pretending not heared what I am talking about.

 

    So,they really make me anger then.I decided to get up from the bad,I connected the MIC through the louder,and download lots of chinese opera,chinese typle north part folk muisic and chinese rock and roll,and something others which are not quite pleasure for hearing that but with strong beat and high keys in the music,anyway,I just wantted to cover the nosie and disrupted  those stupid workers.and it works,I cant hear those noise anymore,and I guess the whole kalkara full of "chinese music"."enjoy that!U guys!",I shouted though the MIC loudly.

 

     thats who pa who,if in english should be said like"if u bite me,i will bite u back".

   

     thos stupid build a little small house spend more than 3 years but still not finished even they worked day and night even the weekend,thats really unbelieveable for me,dose maltese bulider workers stupid or lazy?IDK.In countryside of my city,famers bulider the same house like that size only need 4 months,in shanghai,we can bulid a huge shopping mall which is more taller and bigger than Hilton here just need 6 months.thats effecitve.they all shoul learn from us.idiots.dont make me anger anymore,otherwise I will use the same music stuck ur mouth.lol.

Once he was all my heart,but now he is nothing at all just an asshole.

thank u my ex for giving me all the curses on my birthday today.

thats after 2 years relationship what i deserved right?

i wont feel any regret to kick him and left him.

just laught at my fool first love.

life goes on,look infront,quite a nice view.

birthday i make 3 wish:young,pretty,rich.

lol.

noodles!

i should make a noodles and some boil eggs as well for myself,cause thats old chinese tradition of birthday food.

go to do it now.

 

 

 

 

tomorrow is the begining of MAY,i give myself lots of plan to do:

 

1.sleep eariler and get up eariler.before 12 sleep and get up before 8,like when i was in school.

 

2.study harder.no matter how i study,there still lots of new and strange things come out,anyway,fighting!everyday should do more reading,all kinds of reading,and pass the damn exam.fighting fighting fighting fight with ur damn borning but have to damn to study.lol.seems i got depress of study.crazy.

 

3.enjoy the life.it is true that how long i didn`t got happy?i want happy,live happily!

 

4.no smoking,no alcohol.or maybe reduce the times of doing that.

 

5.still didn`t got idea what i want to wirte here,but i think just leave it there at this moment.

 

next week monday is my birthday!happy birthday!oh yeah!i will celebrate it on this week friday,cheers!

 

 

 

Recently i always sleepless,

thinking too much on bed,

tomorrow evening i should going out for some fun,

unbelieveable what happened on me,

i have 3 days didn`t sleep.

should be got depression.

anyway,from 12 till 6:10 now still awake,it seems that i should find something to do for killing time,em...

cook noodles!

cool,here we go now!

      It seems that the time is coming now all over the whole country of China work together to fight with those american ignorance people,and ur american will finally realised that u shouldn`t tease and ruin chinese people`s character.

     

     Every chinese people got big anger with CNN unreal news about "Tibet,Chinese hurmanright,and Olympic games",and now,ur bitches hit our chinese people on the street,and use ur countries` own media ruined our chinese people,what u want to do next,nobody is fool,and dont think that what u said chinese people can`t hear that.we cant not always bear u do any shit on our head anymore.

 

     Cafferty from CNN

 

     "I don't know if China is any different, but our relationship with China is certainly different。We're in hock to the Chinese up to our eyeballs because of the war in Iraq, for one thing. They're holding hundreds of billions of dollars worth of our paper. We are also running hundreds of billions of dollars' worth of trade deficits with them, as we continue to import their junk with the lead paint on them and the poisoned pet food and export, you know, jobs to places where you can pay workers a dollar a month to turn out the stuff that we're buying from Wal-Mart. So I think our relationship with China has certainly changed, I think they're basically the same bunch of goons and thugs they've been for the last 50 years."

 

     Ur people really too ethnocentrism,we can not bear what u said totally,and u,as a media people,u know what u said can effect how many people`s idea through the media if those people know nothing about that,cause this is the theory of preconception.well,today i should tell u something which is not in ur talk content.

   

      First,ur people r so ignorance,and it is so ridiculous that u blame us that all the money of ur contry were took up by our country which u country got from Iraq by burned them,killed them and used army settle down there for controling them and the petrol there. it is so ridiculous!well,how?the same like u did by kill ur american people and robbed?dont say urself and ur country people looks like victims,we dont have those ability to take all ur money to our country,it is business totally,u give us money and we made productions for u,it is totally fair,no objection.if u american business man dont wanna have business,u can do not come here,our country didn`t force u to do this right?so please do not always whine anymore.

 

      second,junk???it is funny,and i should tell u here that our country people dont like using junk in our daily life either,there is a special job in China,people collected those junk which we dont want to use anymore,and then they said use those for recyle,so,do u mean ur country are using our recyle things,well,if like this,i should admire ur country peoples good character.but the fact i wanna tell u are:u can`t not blame our country either our chinese people just by ur country use junk stuff which are MADE IN CHINA,look,it is fair i should tell u,do u expect that "a dollar a month"u paid for our country people can provide ur country good stuff for daily used?i think a dollor even can not afford a softdrink in ur country,and u think just 1 dollor can let us provide how many things for ur country?dont daydream please man,dont dream that use 1 dollor can buy a good quality shoes anywhere in this world which can provide u use it more than 10 years long.and u silly do not blame our country as devil who r threating ur countrys life or safe,r u fool?if u dont want buy something Made In China u can just leave it there,no one force u buy it.and the most important point u didn`t see is u should blame ur country`s business man:well,it is all ur country business man want to earn much more money from ur country people,so they had to use 1 dollor made lots of junk stuff sell u,considered how much we can earn from ur country`s 1 dollor just for producting,but how much ur country can get from 1 dollors lost? in fact the money in ur country didn`t lost but just be collected by several big businessman and they can use it enjoy the good life. do u think they dont know what they bought are junk or bad quality or with some chemial things in food stuff?i think they had know that alreay considering the international trade business is so strict and there r lots of lows for that as well, but did they care u?of course ur countrys business man didn`t care ur amercian people,cause they r selfish and greedy if it is not ur amercian peoples common character.hihi,they just want their life better.(and by the way,dont be fool,u country is not so strong as u think,1 dollor can`t paid our people work for u for a month,it is so ridiculous,and u r just a ignorance people if u think like this,and by the way,i heared that ur dollors to our yuan nearly down 1:5.9 in our country,take care)

 

      and i should tell u that next time,u should know,more money better quality,little money is nothing.do not blame us anymore.u r the "goons and thugs" in fact if u do not realize what i said. if u think no one chinese knows what u said goons and thugs means,how about i said this to u:"zi qi qi ren",well,our country to describe this to u r much more politely than u.for real.

 

      i found a pic of a chinese boy in procession,he is so cute,love him!gaga!

 

 

     anway,i still feel proud of being a chinese,i like my small eyes and thank our country give me a pair good eyes to see this world objectively.u should not offense chinese people anymore your american guys.

     

    It is so drama,i want write this story cause i really got confused and unfortable when i think of the story of me and that doctor,so i have to vent my feeling at somewhere,otherwise i will feel being blocked.

 

    there is a guy who we know each other more than 6 months i think,and he is doctor,he is pretty,tall,nice body,we used to trained together,recently we connected with each other after a long long time,he said he likes me,and he said he want something more than s word,but i didn`t answer him about this issue,considering it is so wired because we have long time didn`t connect with each other but now recently why he started to fancy me?thats why i didn`t give him answer even refused his dating,i said to him i was busy with my work.it is ture,and my friend also have some problems at this moment,i have to company with they and work together to help them get rid of their problems.so the doctor and i still no time for meetting,i liked him as well,but i dont know he is serious or not,considering that we have such a long time no see and talk with each other.but anyway i wanna have S with him.

 

    my friend suspect they got sexual disease,so they made a appointment several weeks ago,in those time they didn`t got a good mood,i know thats hard,even me worried about them a lot,this week thursday i companyed with they went to hospital to check they really got it or not.

 

    now,the drama story started,my friend and i waitted in front of the door of std in the hospital in the morning,i felt sleepy because the day before that day i didn`t sleep well,and my friend and i chatted,suddendly i saw my doctor dude passed by,well,that time he didn`t found i was there,cause he was busy doing something like photocopy things,and i told my friend that he is that doctor dude.

   

    when he walked back,i waved my arm and said hello to him without thinking,cause i was so happy to meet him finally,(he works in another area in this hospital),and i can saw his face got bright smile to me as well when he suddendly saw me there,but just 1 second,when he glaced that i was sat in front of the office of sexual disease,his face turned and i can`t use word to discribe it exactly,cause that time i can feel his mood is complicated,and he ignored me walked away,even no said hello to me.so i sat there still and companyed with my friend,but one good thing is the doctor said that my friend got nothing and they is clean,i am so happy for them.

    that day evening,i saw he was online on MSN,so i talked with him,i remembered i said it was so nice when i saw u in hospital,but he didn`t look like chatting with me,and looked like not using heart to send back message,finally i couldn`t hide my mood and asked him:"why u didn`t say hello to me that time when i was in hospital?and u looked not like chatting with me."he answered he was busy,and i said to him:"it seems that u r still busy now,cause i can feel u not like chatting with me at this moment as well"he said he was going to sleep."oh,GN then"i sended it to him and then delected him from my MSN.

 

    and i smiled and thought what a funny story happened on me,all because  that morning i companyed with my friend to see the doctor,is there anything wrong with me to do that?but i didn`t regret,cause i think i did the right thing,at least i didn`t betray my freind or embarrassed my friend and i supported my friend in my own way.no one is perfect,at least i am not perfect,i have to admit that i got lots of weak points:i got a horse face,and my eyes are so small lazy eyes,and my body particularly likes to perspire(like oil or something like that),even myself  cant stand the smell of my bed room,i dont like cleaning and tidying my bed or bed room,even cooking and doing other housework like washing cloths.i am not interested in sports things.and most of the time i act not like a man(this my mum always said to me,lol)......anyway,i get lots of weak points for real,no matter u like it or not,those i think difficult to change for me.if u want to close to me,u have to accept those thing,and if u can persuade me to change those,thats ur talent.

    and i can`t imagine that maybe one day,the pretty doctor got a nice looking boyfriend and they get a nice period time,and one day the doctors boyfriend broken his legs and can`t walk,and it need 1 or 2 year to recover,what that doctor will do to him,probrally ignored his boyfriend and make some excuses say he is busy something.

 

     today,i can`t stand my mum and the other chinese people talk something about gay,soemthing like gay is disgusing,camp,and something like that,so i told her "it is nothing to be a gay",my mum said to me"thats u,cause u act like a gay",i got pissed and said "yes i am gay,and tomorrow i will lead boy to home".after that my mum embarrassing me in front of those chinese stuff.but anway,i feel relax after i told her.wow,unbelieveable,i am coming out,lol.

 

    pink party,lol,sister and i,wear new pink pyjamas which i bought from Marks and Spencer,and i got a lots of sweets and chotolates and something other food for party,we played NDS and watched DVD at home.is there anyone wanna join us next time?

 

       

 

   

 

做为一个中国人,尤其是身在国外,我是真的是受不了了这些外国媒体把中国说的如此妖魔化.

    maybe it is an old topic that i talk about the weather again in malta

    but it is true that the weather here in malta seem never turns well.rain,rained in the morning,and u can hear the sound of the rain beat the windows.cloud,cloudy all day,and u can see the dark falled down and covered the whole country.wind,windy day,company with the rain,make the weather even worse.but anyway,it is ok,i am not the only one who suffering this bad weather.i am still get up at 11,and then gym and work,and then went home watch dvd,deep in the story.

    recently i want change work,cause i really don`t like work in the restaurant,i fell that it waste of time in restaurant,cause all i learned in university became useless knowledge.but anyway,it seems difficult for me to find a job something with communication here in malta,even have this kind of job,i am not maltese and don`t know what they talking about everyday,it is also a problem.well,life maybe like this,who knows.i will try.when it is not a raining day,i will go out to find one.

    yesterday me and staurt talk bout the topic about marrie even outsite is raining,but we feel so warm to talk about it because it is really a nice and romantic topic,and we talk about how to bring a babe and shape the mind of the babe and who to spend time with the children,well,it looks that we r a couple,hihi,but he want bring a school child,i`d rather choose a infant to start,hihi.how nice talking with him everytime,he is a really a nice guy who always give me encouragements.

   i took some pics yesterday after the rain,used my old canon powershot A610,it seems that it have a very long time that i never touched that,but everytime i got an satisfaction from shooting.and i really enjoy the time with my camera.even now i have forgotten how to use it make good picture and who to use ps to edit it,but i still can get satisfaction from that.i will keep on doing this.

   brabrabra,does it really boring?i am sorry if it really like this,hihi.

 

  today i watched a cartoon film named "ratatorille",it decribed a rat want to be a chef,even though that people don`t like rat and hate rat,but that little rat still a good chef,even it is the best chef in paris.

  this film reach touched me,cause it gives me a encouragement that can make u feel life is more bright than before.

  some people maybe most of them don`t like u,but it won`t stop ur dream to be or cover the fact that what u r.don`t too care much aobut opinions of others,just be yourself and do as u want still.

  sometimes i am like that rat,cause i am also like that,not all the people like what i am,but i am just sad about how people treat me,well that rat didn`t like that,he just work hard on his dream,and helped his friend and got the friendship and respect from him.

  shan and his girlfriend today chated with me,they are going to live together,how nice they are!i wish shan and his girlfriend get married,cause we are old now.hihi,how i admire them.well my real prince at least appear in 5 years later i think.don`t worry,first do best at english and got a good job and life.i am missing u too,hope u and other 3 tigers live happily in china.

   chirstmas day coming soon,today i bought a kenzo perfum for mum and a gucci perfum for dad,a leather shoes for my sister,hope when u receive these present u will like it anyway.i am missing my grandma,she is in china now,i grew up in her house,everyday she got up at 3 clock and prepare food for me and then waked me up at 6 and give me some money for use in school everyday even she is not rich,and she still pay the fees of my university course.thanks for my grandma,otherwise i won`t be a university student at all.i think this life i own my grandma so much that i can`t repay her back,i am so sorry,but u r always be the first one in my heart.

   today is the second time on chat between me and  stuart on msn,but before we have already chat many times through the BBS,he always give me new things to learn,history and culture sometimes we talk about life,it is so nice talking with him everytime.i like his full of knowledge.

   recently i always listen the songs of "bread",romantic and warm always,it is my favor style.hihi.

   chirstmas coming soon,hope everyone i known will be happy!

     it is nearly 5 months since i have been this country.

     i am still like 5 months ago,at least my english looks still poor as before,hihi.

     well,the most important thing is now i need learn to be independent,cause i need a new life,that life is my own,not belong to others.that life i can have a job that i want to be and earn money myself for my living.and maybe i can find a guy fall in love and get married anyway,hihi,this is the future things and i totally don`t know about that at now,but at least i really should do is working hard on my english,and doing best on that can make myself good at listen,writing,reading and speaking as a english speaking man.otherwise,i can not find a good job.so no good english no good job no good future and no good new life.if i really want to be independent,i should start at working hard on my english now.

     trying to change,make the life looks more interesting,do gym everyday,study english everyday,and have english class and kongfu training every week.forget about the love things now,just trying to change,be independent.own a life that my own