Feel not like talking with people,everyone,I stopping talking with anyone.

I am tried,but how can I find a way to relax?

Am I doing something wrong?

Suddenly I feel lonely and sad.

"Lonely people always feel ashamed",I finally realize this means.

Could everything make even worse on me?let me suffer it until perfect,and let me know that:anyone and anything else can mess me and my life.

Give up something and keep moving on.  

I do not want look back after this time,so give me some courage,and let me do it.ok?

    just heard one of my chinese friend said that yesterday my mun told her that she paid my 4 years universtiy fees when i was in china,how shameless she is,she is a lier and she is such a asshole!how shameless she can say something like that?

    hope she didn`t tell that one who i recently crash on,but i guess she already did.

    anyway,after 22 years i finally know what kind of mum i got.i will never admit that she is my mum,cause she never act like a mum.nobody will believe it,how a mum can kick her son out after stloen her son 4500euros.

    OMG,just can`t believe it,but i have to get used to it.anyway,new job,new place for living,hope my life wont suck anymore.

    Recently I just cant sleep so early,cause addictive to one chinese online game,normally I get sleep in the morning 3 or 4 clock,sometimes at 6 or 7 in the morning.so I normally get up at 12 or 1 or 2 in the afternoon.

 

    Today,something not quite pleasure happened,some stupid works was building house around my house from 6 this morning till afternoon,and u can hear those unpleasure hammer noise all the time.they totally disrupt my sleep,and I got pissed,"whats the hell u guys doing here?it is weekend,u know?I am sleeping!"I opened the window and shouted to them.

 

    And they seems pretending not heared what I am talking about.

 

    So,they really make me anger then.I decided to get up from the bad,I connected the MIC through the louder,and download lots of chinese opera,chinese typle north part folk muisic and chinese rock and roll,and something others which are not quite pleasure for hearing that but with strong beat and high keys in the music,anyway,I just wantted to cover the nosie and disrupted  those stupid workers.and it works,I cant hear those noise anymore,and I guess the whole kalkara full of "chinese music"."enjoy that!U guys!",I shouted though the MIC loudly.

 

     thats who pa who,if in english should be said like"if u bite me,i will bite u back".

   

     thos stupid build a little small house spend more than 3 years but still not finished even they worked day and night even the weekend,thats really unbelieveable for me,dose maltese bulider workers stupid or lazy?IDK.In countryside of my city,famers bulider the same house like that size only need 4 months,in shanghai,we can bulid a huge shopping mall which is more taller and bigger than Hilton here just need 6 months.thats effecitve.they all shoul learn from us.idiots.dont make me anger anymore,otherwise I will use the same music stuck ur mouth.lol.

Once he was all my heart,but now he is nothing at all just an asshole.

thank u my ex for giving me all the curses on my birthday today.

thats after 2 years relationship what i deserved right?

i wont feel any regret to kick him and left him.

just laught at my fool first love.

life goes on,look infront,quite a nice view.

birthday i make 3 wish:young,pretty,rich.

lol.

noodles!

i should make a noodles and some boil eggs as well for myself,cause thats old chinese tradition of birthday food.

go to do it now.