闲了两天在家,结果越呆心越乱.

长大了真的是不好玩,什么都要想,什么都要操心.原来理想与现实之间的差距真的很大.

在生活中,工作不顺心,找对象又找不到称心的,想找个说说话的人都没有,心里的滋味真的很不好.

总是在不顺心的时候就想回国,可要是回国了之后就又要重新开始,我真的不知道要从哪里开始的好,迷茫,真的很讨厌自己,犹犹豫豫的,拿不起放不下.

我那个山水田园的梦看来真的是实现不了了.

乱,心里真的太乱,

烦,心里真的很烦.

This evening,on the bus there was a damn hot spanish guy who sat face to me,and he didn`t stop staring at me since like he never saw any chinese guy before,he is damn hot guy:I like his hair style,like aferican people`s hair style,he wears typical spanish cloth and even his bag is typical spanish home made as well,I guess he should from a small village of spain,bt his nature character impressed me a lot,and his smile without any disguse and so pure,like a big child!!!I love the way he look at me,curious and with quite a lot of interested,I love when he singing and clupped his hand no matter other passangers staring at him with bad attitude,he seems didn`t care about that,he enjoyed and gave me lots of joy too,he is such a guy who knows enjoy life,and when he asked me like spain or not,damn!if everyone all looks as hot as him,i will live there forever!!!

 

anyway,anyhow,we r just passagers in a bus,and never see each other again probrally,bt this 30mins bus give me quite a lot of good joy,I am so enjoy it in this raining day.cheers!love spanish!

 

my friends dont say that I am horny ok?Hihi,I just want to keep this good momery of coversation with this hot spanish guy.

    I have an asshole boss,he always pay me less than what he should pay me,his name is Patrick.

 

    Last time,he paid me less 2 and half hours,cause I am so busy,and I dont like to talk about this with him,but this time,he made even worse than the last time,and he paid me less 16 euros,he is such an asshole,I work for him day and night,and sometimes even can`t get enough hours for sleep,but he paid me not as much as he should paid me,anyway,I will not compromise this things,and I will ask my wage back for sure!

    Recently should work too much everyday,cause today since I got up from bed,I have been feeling tired all the tired,but it is ok,I am young,Just treat it as a spirt and body`s training,and i am sure that I will have a good future for sure!

   

    For love,for children,for future,for dreams,I need work hard,and when i think of this this,I feel much more happy than tired.

 

    There`s something recently I have to learn and use it,It`s very important if people live in this society nowadays,I hope that something my friends can learn as well from here and maybe it is useful to u too.

 

     1."learn to refuse"

 

     It`s so important to know how to refuse people,sometimes they ask lots of requests or helps from u,bt you r not superman right?dont be shy when u can`t not do it or out of ur ability,start to say"No!"to them,otherwise u can only be tired of urself and dont expect other people understand u and appreciate u.just help people properly is enough.

 

    2."Don`t always be honest"

 

    It`s a great and precious character in this world to be honest,but look at this world now,how many people be honest to u then?I got many times of  betreat or hurt just because I am too honest to people.You will never have idea of how many people hide their knives behind themselves and waitting u open ur heart to them and then they will cut it off.

    To strangers,"Hell NO"!dont always trust them so easily,be calm to them first always safe to urself.

    To nodding head people,"No".u will not sure if they r just using u or not,dont treat this kind of relationship seriously.

    To some of ur friends and even some of ur family members,u can`t trust them either sometimes,but to ur truely friends and the family member who really love u,it is always nice when u be honest to them.cause they can really think of u,and help u without any considering,and they won`t have any purpose on u,be honest with them,u will get the same honest from them as well.

 

   3."Be happy"

 

    Be happy,try to live happily every day,dont make ur own difficult urself.

 

    This morning,I bought a pasta in one of the small restaurant in Msida,it totally aweful,I can`t ate it totally.taste like not cooked.ya...k

 

     My jerry beans,I miss u,no time to buy u in the supermarket,next time I will buy 10 packets from there.yummy!

    

   

jerry beans so yummy!can`t help eatting them every day!!!

 

recently I worked a lot,money money money,all I want is u now,cause only only money won`t betreat me,money is my best friend,hihi~(By the way,some of ur guys dont think that I am not treat u like my best friends,of course I won`t!)When I save enough,I leave here,and move to another place.

 

I want buy a PSP,and a NDS as well,but the thing is I wont have time playing that.hesitating~~~

 

S went to roma now,and hope he will study well there.

 

Goona relax now,finally get one day off,happy!and gonna to enjoy it now.

This weekend too tired for me,more than 10 hours a day working,bt I enjoy it,seems my life started busy again now.

 

It is nice when life start back to normal again.yesterday I found a nice bargin book shop,and there get lots of nice books there,I think maybe after finish reading that fiction and the magzine I will go there buy some nice books reading.

 

Maybe this year later I will find one week free and go to Itlay for a vacation.I need a holiday for myself to release my mood.

 

Busy busy,going to cook something,today`s diary is over,take a bow.